Almost two years have passed since I was diagnosed with invasive primary breast cancer.  A double mastectomy (without reconstruction), 8 cycles of chemotherapy, 15 rounds of radiation, and a third surgery later, I am now beginning to see recovery in sight.  My hair has regrown, and for the first time since 4 July 2023, I am starting to feel like myself again. 

Initially, I thought a return to companionship was exactly what I needed. Indeed, I really miss it. However, I realise that I am now a very different person to how I was pre-cancer. Perhaps most pertinently to this sphere, I have no breasts. I have no nipples. I have no areolas. Instead, I have phantom pain yet no sensitivity, across what was once a most beautiful chest.

While I do strongly believe that breasts do not a woman make, in this world, they are a non-negotiable. Regrettably, I feel that companionship is no longer a viable option for me. As such, this is where we part ways. Indeed, once I manage to download my blog, this site will disappear.

Au revoir, dear friend.